I’m 10 minutes late for work because I mistimed my morning. Again. I stayed in bed too long, or I didn’t prepare lunches the night before, or I didn’t leave enough time to deal with a toddler who is cranky and clinging to my leg/wants to play tea party when it’s time to get dressed/is taking for.ev.er to eat breakfast.
The dishes are piled in the sink and threatening to spill onto the counter. Again.
We can’t seem to make and stick with a meal plan to save our lives and we’re doing the late-afternoon “What do you want to do for dinner? I don’t know; what do you want to do for dinner? Well, did we defrost anything?” texting thing. Again.
While brushing my teeth, I notice that the bathroom sink looks grimy and the mirror is speckled with water stains. How long have they been that way? Please don’t ask about the rest of the house. At least we have clean clothes to wear. They’re still in the laundry basket, but they’re clean and folded. I call it a win.
By the time Wednesday rolls around, whatever beginning-of-the-week optimism and energy I had is gone. I have no clue what to pack in my daughter’s lunch. She’s 16 months old and I only have to pack her lunch three days a week. If I’m running out of ideas now, I’m toast by the time she’s in school.
I need to get it together. If I could just get it together, life would run more smoothly. The house would be clean and organized, dinners would come together with ease, and I could finally lose the baby weight.
The problem is, the very concept of “getting it together” is a lie. It is a fantasy. No matter how hard we try or how well we plan, we can’t get it together. When we try to get it together, we rely on our own strength and we fail. Every single time.
When my maternity leave was almost over, I emailed my close friends to ask for prayer. I said that I had plans and checklists in place and was hopeful they would help make the transition back to work a smooth one. One dear friend pointed me away from my own plans and back toward the Cross. She reminded me that lists are helpful tools, but that it is God who guides us. When we clothe ourselves in the Gospel and rest in His grace and strength, He empowers us to do what He calls us to do.
I’m not saying that we don’t find ways to make our busy lives run more smoothly. We are to be good stewards of our time as well as our talent and treasure. But we cannot do ANY of it in our own power. When we try, our plans become idols and we end up discouraged and defeated.
Remind yourself daily of the Gospel truth: yes, we are weak and frail, but He is strong and full of grace, mighty and faithful to save. “And he is before all things, and in him all things hold together.” Colossians 1:17
Christ our Lord holds all things together. He holds us, our plans, our exhaustions, our weaknesses, our struggles, and our schedules. He holds ALL of it. May you find rest and peace in the knowledge that He is holding you today.